Thud

Just when you think you have things figured out, something happens.  The event can be positive or negative but the result is the same.  You wonder what happened and what should you do next.  Sometimes you struggle to regain your balance and sometimes you just smoothly flow into the next chapter.  Sometimes you don’t have a clue.

So here I am today–clueless!

I am spending time caring for my husband who is in the midst of the Alzheimer’s long journey, during the worst pandemic in 100 years and wondering if I’ll ever get my balance back.  But the truth is maybe I don’t need it.  Maybe this is the right time for free form and impressionist painting and just enjoying being alive.  Maybe this is the chapter that doesn’t need to follow rigid habits and schedules.

Well, I have decided not to spend a lot of time trying to figure it all out. 

I remember when I took Judo in college.  The instructor talked about the importance of  relaxation as we fall, in order not to get hurt. 

I am falling, sure, but if I relax, it will just be a thud. No damage done.

How are you today? 

Any falls lately? 

Thuds or damage?